I don't declare resolutions at the beginning of a New Year, I do set intentions based on how I would like my year to unfold. I consider it my own little way of planning. I'm a planner in some ways- scheduling blog posts, waking up on time, making sure I eat. In other ways I have learned to let go and trust the universe, the powers that be, whatever is guiding us all- that it is having a hand in my endeavors. Maybe it takes the pressure off a bit to consciously decide not to overthink and obsess. At times it's ok to be a passive, as long as we are staying committed to living out our lives standing in our truth, being honest with what brings us joy and always always being grateful for what we have.
Sometimes our deepest fears, vulnerabilities and the expectations we place on ourselves is not something that makes us weird, or even weak. None of us are alone in our pursuit of finding what it is that makes us all light up inside
The last two years I have spent the night before New Years Eve sitting in a circle among some of the most beautiful souls that have walked across my path, all declaring to one another what we hope to manifest in the New Year. Some are dear friends, others are new faces. This experience is humbling and magical. For me it provides an awareness that sometimes our deepest fears, vulnerabilities and the expectations we place on ourselves is not something that makes us weird, or even weak. That none of us are alone in our pursuit of finding what it is that makes us all light up inside. Choosing our guiding word for the New Year suddenly becomes very clear, even though up until the very moment of my word epiphany I don't seem to have any idea what word is calling me. It just happens.
My guiding word for 2016 is honesty. That doesn't mean to say I have been living in lies for half my life, or I suddenly feel the need to blurt out exactly how I am feeling at all times. It simply means I plan to honor my feelings, self worth and my passions in life without hesitation. Fully standing in my truth is a powerful vehicle for change, and also something I am not always comfortable with. So yeah, I guess its time. Time to be fearless. It could be because I have been alive for almost 4 decades now, or possibly based on reflecting back on the too many times I made decisions without taking stock on what my gut was trying to tell me. A big no no.
One of my favorite quotes reads "the quickest way to self-confidence is to do exactly what you are afraid to do". When I feel hesitation about standing in my honesty, I will remember that my guiding word is there to offer a little push. That there is a reason I felt so compelled to carry that word with me. I suppose the outcomes will be exactly as they should be because I will be making a commitment to speak only the truth. To being myself.
I'm excited to jump into a New Year with my guiding word hanging out with me when there are emails I don't want to answer, conversations I don't want to attend, decisions that I am avoiding. I will tell myself to look honesty in the face and in the process be honoring my truth. If you haven't chosen your guiding word for the New Year, maybe this post will give you a little push in the right direction.
My honest wish for you is this year brings only those moments of joy. When days show up leaving us feeling exhausted and wanting to bury our head in the pillow screaming, that we can look to our guiding word and remember we are all on this journey together, guiding each other to live out our days standing in our truth.
Happy New Year blessings, may you always be guided by your truth